Dear Operation Rescue: A Plea for Forgiveness

 
October 22, 2002

Dear Operation Rescue: A Plea for Forgiveness 

Dear Brothers and sisters in Christ,

Please take the time to read this. The work you do, as difficult as it may seem sometimes, is not in vain. Continue to fight the good fight. There is a lost and dying world in need of the only One who can save, Jesus Christ! We received this email from a man who used to guard the mills in his area. He now has come before you to ask forgiveness. Please let him know how much you love him and that Jesus has set him free. His email address is at the bottom of his letter. Flip's response to him is below as well.

Dear Operation Rescue,

My name is David Allman. I am a former (retired) Sergeant of the Pittsburgh Police. For many years, I worked off duty at the abortion clinic in East Liberty, Pittsburgh, Pa. in the 80's and 90's. (I am the Sergeant pictured in Randall's book, Operation Rescue in the chapter "Who is the Enemy?"). I had forgotten all these years of my duty there and what I did to enable women to kill their unborn children.

To you as an organization, I am deeply sorry! To Randall Terry, Keith Tucci, and all the other Rescuers, again, from my heart I am truly sorry!

I used to justify my existence there as upholding the laws of man. I turned deaf ears to the sidewalk counselors as they tried to explain about the Laws of God.

Today, I was preparing a testimony to the congregation of my church of the Saving Grace of God through my Risen Lord, Jesus Christ, when God revealed my heart to me. He showed me my sins at the Clinics. I guess I put it out of my heart and head because of shame.

My soul is in deep agony over my conduct during that time of my life. I feel that before I ask the One Living and True God for the Mercy that is from everlasting to everlasting, I first need to ask those of you whose work for Jesus I made difficult while I imposed man's law.

I feel right now that I am no better then the Commandants of the Nazi Death Camps or of Judas when he caused such a Great Teacher to die for blood money. As I now look back, all I was paid was indeed, blood money. As I go through the Dark Night of the Soul, I think of the thousand deaths that I enabled or allowed. I wonder who they might have been or what they might have done to rid this world of its sin and strife?

Please take a moment and ask those who knew of my God-less times to pray for my soul and most importantly, to please forgive me!

David R Allman,
hogheaven@stargate.net

This is Flip's response:

Dear David,

My name is Flip Benham and I am the National Director of Operation Rescue. It has been my distinct privilege to be the leader of this great Gospel mission to the pre-born since February of 1994, when Keith Tucci and Randall Terry placed this mantle upon me. I want you to know that I am a far more unworthy servant of this Gospel message to America than you. I believe you will find, across the board, that most of us involved in this ministry would express the same sentiment.

We are sinners saved by the grace of Almighty God through faith in His one and only Son Jesus Christ. David, He dug us all out of a pit so deep that there was no hope for us apart from Him. Realizing this truth, we are all very aware of our absolute need to depend upon Him.

Obviously the Holy Spirit has broken your heart over your own sin and culpability in the shedding of innocent blood. Like Isaiah before you (Isaiah 6:1-8) when He saw the Lord, high and lifted up, he became painfully aware of his own wretchedness and wickedness. The only thing he could do was confess this truth, "Woe to me! I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips, and my eyes have seen the King, The LORD Almighty."

He was utterly hopeless and helpless before the presence of Almighty God. He was guilty before God, he deserved death, and he knew it. But God had a seraph take a live coal from the altar of the Lord and touch his lips and he was "instantly" cleansed from the guilt of his sin. The mercy of Almighty God is never-ending to all who come to Him with a broken and contrite heart.

David, your broken and contrite heart over your own sin and involvement in the child-killing industry is precious in the sight of God. No longer is it a Seraph that brings to you a live coal from the altar to cleanse you but it is God's own Son, Jesus, whose blood was shed for you that cleanses you. This is the new and living way!

Your godly sorrow has brought you to true repentance which has produced a desire in you and an earnestness to clear yourself. It has created an alarm and indignation in your own soul over what you have been involved in and, most importantly, it has created a readiness to see justice done.
(all that is spoken of here can be found in 2 Corinthians 7:8-11)

David, you have our forgiveness for God has forgiven you. You have had the courage to come and ask and we desire that you freely receive this forgiveness as a gift from God Himself.

David, you have our forgiveness for God has forgiven you. You have had the courage to come and ask and we desire that you freely receive this forgiveness as a gift from God Himself.

Examine closely verse 8 of Isaiah chapter 6 because when God cleansed Isaiah, Isaiah began to hear God's voice calling him. "Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?" Isaiah responded, "Here am I. Send me!"

How about you David? Is God calling you to now bring His message to the very gates of hell, the local abortion mills in your city. If so, you will find that the hunter will become the hunted, the persecutor will become the persecuted, the liar will become the lied about. It is the heritage of all of those who follow hard after Christ. I can assure you from personal experience that there is no more glorious path than the one behind the narrow gate.

We love you brother and look forward to your sharing your testimony before all the rescuers at this summer's national event.

In Christian love,

Flip Benham
Director